Detox: Day 1

I woke up easily this morning, despite only getting a few hours of sleep.  I cannot stop tossing, turning, and getting the worst hot flashes.  I took myself off my hormone medication, and I know that's a big part of it.  

Note to self: get into a gynocologist asap sista! 

When I did my official weigh in at the doctor's office on Monday I was 237.8, so I was a little surprised to see this number on the scale.

I did something bad that I didn't want to admit to, but I know I need to.  The whole point of this journey is honesty after all.  After my appointment me and the boys at a local hibachi buffet and pigged out.  I figured it was a "last meal" of sorts, and man did it make the food taste that much better!

Last night L made his famous chili, so that was my real "last meal" and good gosh was it amazing.  You would think me wanting to lose weight I would start with that mindset out the gate, but you'd be wrong!  I am proud to say that I did not grab the Chip's Ahoy! Reese's Pieces cookies I've been hooked on lately after dinner, so I call that a win.

Needless to say, I was expecting a larger number on the scale this morning, and am pleasantly surprised.

Late last night Dash and me ran to the store and I grabbed what I could.  I hate going to the grocery store, and procrastinated as long as I could, but I wish I wouldn't have.  The store was completely picked over, so I didn't have as many options as I would've liked.

Breakfast

My doctor did approve me to make homemade salsa for my morning eggs, so I used my mother-in-law's recipe (for the first time I might add!) and made salsa in my Vitamix. 

Scrambled Eggs, Ground Beef, & Homemade Salsa

L had left me some ground beef from the chili, so I mixed that with two eggs, and good gosh y'all...I think this is going to become a favorite breakfast!  I could've had three more platefuls, but #portionsizes 

I am also SOOO thankful I do not have to quit my coffee!  Honestly that's what gets me through my mornings, and that could've been a dealbreaker for me.  

Coffee=LIFE🖤

I do have to drink it black, but that I can deal with.  I've slowly been weening myself off creamer and sugar for awhile.  It started with lessening the sugar until I stopped using it altogether, and I had been doing the same for the creamer too, so I'm good.

I pretty much stayed on the couch for most of the day, feeling insanely nauseated, and utterly exhausted.  Breakfast didn't fill me up at all, so I had a snack about an hour after the eggs.

Snack #1

Mixed Veggies with Skinny Girl Dressing

I chopped up some veggies, drizzled some Skinny Girl Buttermilk Ranch on top of the broccoli, and sprinkled with Mrs. Dash Lemon Pepper seasoning.  While at the store I couldn't decide on what low-carb dressing to try out, so I grabbed two different Skinny Girl dressings, since I've heard good things about this brand.  My first one to try was the Skinny Girl Buttermilk Ranch dressing.

It. Was. DISGUSTING!!

You can ask the boys, I was gagging the entire time I was trying to eat the broccoli.  I am a Hidden Valley ranch girl all the way, so this imposter was sacrilege!  The bottle immediately got dumped down the drain, and the beautiful glass bottle was recycled.  Sad, but there's no way me, or anyone in the family, would eat that nastiness (and yes I did have everyone sample first).  One bottle down, two to go...

Lunch

My bleh snack held me over for a bit, but by the time lunch time hit, I was ready for some meat!  I made a spinach salad, with green onions, green bell pepper, cucumber, and topped it with the rest of my ground beef.  L seasoned

Spinach Salad Topped with Seasoned Ground Beef

this ground beef with just black pepper and Julio's seasoning, and it was delicious!!

I drizzled my next Skinny Girl dressing to taste test: Skinny Girl Balsamic Vinaigrette...and we have a winner!  I honestly don't think there is a way you can screw up a vinaigrette, and thank goodness this was a much better eating experience than that awful ranch!

I devoured my salad, and know now that seasoned ground beef is one of my new best friends.

Snack #2

To reduce headache withdrawals as much as possible, my doctor recommended having 2-3 Cuties to help combat the withdrawal symptoms, so that was my second snack of the day.  I've been battling migraines for weeks, so I am used to dealing with the pain, but for a few hours I could hardly move it hurt so bad.  Thankfully the Cuties did help take the edge off, but sadly that is the only "sweet" I am allowed during my detox.

Dinner

When L came home he cooked the chicken that I bought at the store last night.  L is the one that does the grocery shopping so when I went to grab chicken breasts I wasn't too sure which kind to buy.  Apparently I picked up the

Thin Sliced Grilled Chicken with Spinach Salad

"thin sliced" chicken breast, which apparently was a challenge for my man to grill (he couldn't get the meat thermometer in them they're so slim), but he did another masterful job.  They turned out amazing!!

I ate my grilled chicken with another spinach salad, topped with the Skinny Girl Balsamic Vinaigrette and a green onion.  It was simple, yet satisfying.

Normally after a meal, especially dinner, is when I crave sweets the most, and tonight was no exception.  I put my nose in a book, and tried my hardest to will those thoughts away.  I reminded myself of what I am working for, and that no food tastes as good as feeling good about myself.  It was a tough battle but I overcame.  

One thought that really helped is that I will be able to have coffee in a few short hours.  I know that sounds stupid, but hey, it helped!  Well, that and writing about my day.  I've heard of people "writing their way skinny" and I just might start adopting that same mindset.   I will replace my cravings with words.  I do like the sound of that. :)

So, day #1 of my detox is in the books!  I am very proud that I didn't cave, or sneak any food.  I have my eye on the prize!  On to day #2!

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My First Appointment & 3-Day Detox

 My first appointment went so much better than I expected!  I was so nervous that I actually brought the boys with me for support.  Thank goodness they are in virtual learning, so they did their last class in the car while Mom had her first appointment.  

Please excuse the unedited video, but I wanted to capture my thoughts before I truly begin this journey, and I've got enough on my plate than to try an edit a video.  I am a newbie at the whole editing, so I'm sure my videos are going to be cringy at the beginning. Please be patient with me, and if anyone has any video editing tips for me I'd love to hear them!

I was so nervous and it didn't hit me why until I was actually in my appointment.  It's not the weight loss itself, it's the emotions behind it.  There is so much more than weight that I am carrying around, and I've been so consumed with other things that this realization is just now dawning on me.

Lab Results

All the lab work came back perfect, with the exception of my blood sugar.  It was 101, which isn't too horribly high, but it's still something to keep an eye on.  My doctor thinks because my diet has been so high in processed sugar that it could be what's causing it to elevate, but one good thing about having a diabetic child is constantly having the supplies to check if need be.  She's not too concerned, since I am starting a new eating regimen, so I am not going to be concerned either.

The Plan

For the first month I will be going back to the doctor weekly to see how I am doing on my plan.  We are starting the first three days with a detox, which I figured we most likely would, but it's totally doable.  I will be taking a new supplement, and after my detox will add a weight loss prescription.  This is just to kickstart my weight loss and will not be something I continue on long term.  This truly is to give me a strong start, while helping me with my eating habits, which is my number one focus.

For the detox, I am pretty much following a strict keto diet, with just meats, green vegetables, and a ton of water.  I can have unlimited meat, which is great, though I am not a big meat eater, but L has been grilling a lot more since we moved into the house, and is more than happy to help me out.  I love salads, so getting in all those green vegetables shouldn't be a problem.  My only issue is I can't eat meat "dry" and the only dressings I'm allowed to have is low calorie (just for the detox).  I HATE low calorie anything.  I swear I can taste the "fake" and it grosses me out!

Once my detox is finished, I will start my actual plan on Saturday, along with my new medication.  My doctor has went over everything I am taking and feels confident in the medication that she chose for me, but wanted to play it safe and have me start on a Saturday, just to be on the safe side.  I cannot wait to get started!!  

I am a little nervous, especially since my sugar cravings are close to that of someone being addicted to cocaine, but I am praying throughout this whole process, and letting the Lord, and you guys, be my strength.  The support I've received just in these past 24 hours has been amazing. I am truly blessed.

I also have to track all my food on MyFitnessPal so my doctor can see my eating habits, so if you're on the app friend me! I could use the support on there as well.  My username is CherryPie0420.

Weight Tracking

For the first week I have to weigh myself first thing in the morning, after I pee, completely naked, and take a photo of the scale.  I used to weigh myself daily when I lost the weight the first time, so no problem.  I also took my before photos, and didn't think to wear anything cute, so I'm sure it looks bad.  My doctor doesn't want to show me until I hit my goal weight so that I can see how far I've come.

My hashtag for this journey began with #140x40, as in I want to be 140lbs by my 40th birthday (May 2021), but my doctor feels this will be too slim for me, so my official goal is 150lbs, which is how much I weighed when I married L in 2013.❤️

 

My 32nd birthday 2013

  Follow Up

   I go back to the doctor next Wednesday to do my weekly weigh in,  look at my food journal, and talk about how I am feeling on my new medication.  I couldn't be more excited.

This time truly does feel different.  Having a doctor that is supporting me through the whole process, how focused I've felt about finally losing the weight, feeling the hope that I feel deep inside.  For the first time in a very long time I actually feel happy.  I feel content.  I truly believe that I am right where I need to be at the right time, and it feels awesome.

I will be posting the next few days about my detox, since I know I am going to need an outlet.  My biggest feat is the sugar cravings and the fact that my doctor said I will most likely be tired and feel off for the first few days as my body adjusts.  I hope my body adjusts quickly!

My game plan is to keep myself as busy as possible.  The boys are in virtual learning, so that helps keep me busy for a large part of the day, plus my book review book stack is insane, so I'm sure I will get lost in a few books, and the time will zoom by!  The number one thing is listening to my body and following my doctor's instructions.  That and water...lots and lots of water...

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What's My Problem?

The first full week of October has been rough.  My pain is back full force, still fighting depression, and I don't know about you guys but this allergy season has been the worst for me.  Usually I battle allergies more in the spring but this year it's fall for the win!

Yesterday I tried to start back on the 21 Day Fix eating plan and lasted half a day until I got so hungry I started shaking and then it was a free for all.  I did make healthier choices though there was a lot of cheese but I did not get the workout in.

I have started walking to pick my son up from school instead of driving to pick him up and found out that's a 15 minute walk and my iWatch counts it as workout minutes. Sweet!  I am also try to get 5,000 steps each day for October and this has helped me get close to my goal but I'm still not there.  Right now I am averaging anywhere between 2,000-4,000 steps a day depending on how I feel and what's going on that day and that just doesn't cut it for me.  My goal is to get up to 10,000 steps per day but I am really trying to break that up into smaller, attainable goals thus the 5,000 for October.

I am realizing something about my many failed healthy eating and workout attempts that I think rings true for many people:

I do not like to feel restricted 

I think this is where my problem starts.  Every time I try to count calories or just stick to a certain meal plan I always fail because I don't like being told I can't eat or drink something.  So now I am trying to figure out what I can make of that.  Maybe instead of restricting myself I can add goals like a certain number of servings of vegetables per day or watching my portions instead of counting calories.

I really want to get to the bottom of why I continue to fail.  It's like in some sick way I don't want myself to succeed though that's what I want more than anything right now!  There must be other people out there like me.  I'm not alone in this right?  What have other people done to find out what makes them succeed?  Well, that's what I'm going to try to figure out.  I have to fight for my health and right now everything I've tried has failed.

A friend of mine started Jenny Craig and so far as lost 15lbs but at this point there is no way I can afford to do that.  I just feel so discouraged.  I was really hoping October would be my month and so far it hasn't been BUT I still have a few weeks to turn things around right? ;)

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Tastes Like October

Happy October!!

The past two years October has been the worst month for me.  Last October I was hospitalized for two weeks and had my appendix taken out and the October before that is when I had my full hysterectomy.  Needless to say I am nervous about what is in store for me this month.  I am hoping and praying for a medical issue free month. :)

The first day of October, which also signifies the first day of fall on my calendar, means pumpkins.  Everyone has an object that when they think about a particular month there is a memory or an object that sticks out in your mind and for me October means pumpkins.

I remember carving a pumpkin only once in my life which is sad.  I can't even remember the age I was when I did it but I do remember pulling the seeds out with my hands and grossing out with the texture.  I also remember the rotten smell when it's been out on the front porch too long which could be another reason for me only having one pumpkin carving experience in my life.

Our family never went to the pumpkin patches either and I've never taken my kids but I am going to try to change that this year.  So many of my friends do it and it looks like fun!

Oh how I love the flavor that is pumpkin!  Pumpkin pie is one of my top five all-time favorite desserts and the Pumpkin Spice Latte from Starbucks is something I look forward to every year.

This year since money is so tight I bought some pumpkin spice creamer for my coffee instead and am actually sipping on some as I write this.  It just tastes like fall to me!  Yum!!  Oh and have you tried these?

If you are a pumpkin-lover like myself you are going to love them!  Husband wasn't much of a fan but I thought they were great!  They are pretty sweet but I was pleasantly surprised with how much I liked them.

A new month means new goals so that's my goal today!  I love when a new month begins.  It's a fresh start and another chance to get it right and who doesn't need another chance?

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Goodbye September! It's Been Real...

Let me start this post with a disclaimer: if this blog does not make any sense I apologize in advance.  I am extremely sleep deprived. I have been tossing and turning the past three nights and my eyes are black and swollen and my head cannot seem to focus on anything but I figured its the last day of September so I wanted to blog something.  Then I think I'm going to take a much-needed nap. ;)

SparkPeople update:

I didn't jump back in full force like I did the last time I tried to lose weight but I don't think I'm off to that bad of a start.  My focus has been logging in every day, tracking one meal and my water intake, and doing the daily newbie challenge.  So far so good.  I still struggle with my water.  Eight glasses is a breeze for me but I'm going for double that (a gallon a day) and that is more difficult though not completely farfetched.

A few nights ago I was doing good with my water and by the time dinner came I actually wasn't that hungry!  Gotta love the appetite suppressant!!  I'm only weighing once a week but I'm really trying to focus more on how I feel and not on the scale.

With the beginning of the months comes measurements and I will be posting my stats here on the blog.  I'm tired of being ashamed of who I am.  I am Christi and yes I am overweight but I am also on a journey to be my healthiest self.  I'm not perfect and this time I want to document everything I can so one day I can look back and see how far I've came.

Another thing I've realized about myself since starting back on SP is how negative I am about myself.  I am to the point to where I can't even look in the mirror I feel so ashamed.  Not cool.  So while I am trying to work out more and watch what I eat I am also on an emotional journey to love and accept who I am right where I'm at in my life now.  Honestly I think that's going to be the hardest part in all of this.

Job Update:

No I am still unemployed as far as being out in the workforce but you better believe I have kept myself busy.  My house is a lot more in order and I have been decluttering things that should've been done ages ago.

I was hired to do a small temp job here this next week.  The pay isn't great but the company is!  I'm actually going to help my mom declutter her house.  I know some people would cringe at the idea but I love it!  I am a total nerd when it comes to organizing.  Honestly if I could get a job doing that I would be in heaven but sadly there either isn't much of a demand or I'm not looking in the right places.

What's crazy to me is I'm 34 years old and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

There are so many things that sound awesome in theory but when I do more research into the job itself I realize its not for me.  Everything I really want to do either requires a lot of school, the pay isn't great, or both.  I'm still praying about it all and know that God will lead me to where He wants me to be so no worries.

Me Update:

What about me?  I'm hanging in there and taking things day by day.  All of this has really brought my depression back full force which has been tough.  Some days are better than others of course and so I am thankful for the good days and just try to press through the bad ones.

Here's one thing I've been doing every morning that I look forward to every day.

Quiet time in the Word and a cup of coffee.  I feel so lucky that I get to do this every morning.  I have been having more of a hunger to know God's Word on a deeper level so I pulled out a book my grandmother gave me a few years back How to Study Your Bible by Kay Arthur and am trying to learn the Inductive approach.  It's definitely a work in progress but I hope one day to share what God has revealed to me through this rich study.

This week two of my long time best friends came by to visit me and it really revived me.  When the going gets tough you really realize who your friends are (and that's all I'm going to say about that).  I love these girls so much and really need to start making more time for them.

One thing that stinks about being an adult is not having time for your friends like you used to.  What's so great about these two women is that months could go by without us talking or seeing each other but we all love each other and are there when we are really needed.  I'm really blessed to call them friends.

OK its nap time for real! LOL Happy last day of September!!!

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Let's DO This! Goal Setting Sunday

Here I am today and here are the few stats I am comfortable to share right now. ;) 

Weight: 186lbs
Height: 5'7
Feeling: Like I am ready to get over the crud and get some of this fat off my body!!

Faith

I have been struggling with finding the time for a real Bible study.  I think the craziness of summer just makes it all harder so I am going to put that on hold for a few weeks.  I cannot believe school will be starting in less than a month! 

• Audio Bible in a Year in the morning
• Personal devotional at lunch
• Nightly devotional/prayer time with the family

Fitness

My MIL and me are still going for three mornings this week so that is happening.  She has been doing cardio but I am going to start back on my Full-Body-Licious.  Flavia inspires me on a daily basis and I've seen how awesome she's done since she had her daughter and I know if she can do it so can I! 

• Full-Body-Licious three mornings before work
• 3 15-minute cardio sessions either on the elliptical or treadmill
• Dance time with the boys at least once this week

Food

Right now my supplements have been the only consistent thing in my journey to health.  I've been faithfully taking Advocare since MIL came to visit us in June and got me back on track.  Before the crud I was starting to feel better so I'm going to continue with my Spark and MNS3.

As far as meal planning I am still struggling with this one majorly so I am going to break this goal up into smaller goals and hopefully in the next month or two I will be a meal planning fool!  

• Eat every 2-3 hours
• Eat one veggie at every meal/snack
• Start working on food categories in Evernote

I hope and pray that this week I can stay focused on my goals.  My problem is I will write them all out and then the busyness of the week engulfs me and I forget until next week.  I really do not want that to happen.  I hope to keep this blog going all through my journey and one day have reached the changes I so long to see in myself and I will have my journey documented.  How amazing will that be??

"What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see." -Hebrews 11:1

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Cooking To Keep Warm

It's officially winter in the metroplex!  I personally am not a fan of the cold which is the biggest reason I have never even considered moving up north.  Weather like "Icepocalypse 2013" as its quickly becoming known in these parts makes me even more thankful that I don't have to deal with this kind of cold too often. 

 

This is a shot of my front yard.  We really should have raked those leaves before this storm came through.  L is really not looking forward to the thaw. 

I got brave and made it to the corner of the house.  I only almost fell twice. ;)  As I'm taking these pictures a few idiots go speeding down the street.  Some people really do not have any consideration for themselves or others.

The kids begged me to go outside and play in the snow.  I tried to explain to them that this is not snow but ice and they weren't having it.  This is them "proving" that we have snow.  Gotta give them credit for persistence. ;) 

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Anyone who knows me personally knows I hate cooking.  I've never liked it.  I will make every excuse in the book not to cook.  Lately for some reason I've been in the mood to cook.  I think my biggest motivation is when my house is frigid and the only source of warmth comes from the stove. 

I have fallen in love with SkinnyTaste!  Her recipes always look so amazing and I am always adding them to my Pepperplate app on my iPad Air.  I stalk follow her on Instagram and Twitter and have to say that her posts inspire me and make me want to love cooking.

Since we are "iced in" and I am freezing and craving soup I thought I'd try her Cream of Broccoli Soup.

I wish mine looked as pretty as hers but you know what?  Once you take a bite you forget all about the look and get all wrapped up in the taste.  Y-U-M!!!  

I have the most unhealthy family.  My husband and boys are all about anything that doesn't have a fruit or vegetable in it.  When E came in while I was cooking and asked what I was cooking he heard 'broccoli' and bailed.  Figures.  I told everyone they must take one bite and then make their decision.  Husband and my oldest actually ate it and liked it!  My youngest opted for a pb&j instead.  *sigh* Oh well...I tried.

I am SO thankful to Gina for helping me create something that is healthy AND 3 out of 4 people in my family actually like! It's a snow day miracle! :) 

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'Tis the Season To Be Healthy?

Happy Black Friday!!  I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!  I spent my entire day with family and it was amazing.

My grandparents were able to drive up and see everyone and seeing my grandmother broke my heart.  You can tell how the strokes have aged her.  I told my dad I'm so scared this is the last Thanksgiving with her and he told me he felt the same. :(

Me and my cousin, Tommy

Now that Thanksgiving, and my super sugar binge, is over its time to get back on track!  I have been feeling a bit better this last week but work has been so overwhelming its been hard for me to stay on track as far as eating.  I don't know about you guys but food has always been my problem.  I love smoothies and fresh juices but my juicer is a centrifugal juicer so you need to drink the juice soon after you make it.  I am saving to get a masticating juicer which allows you to juice and have some time before you drink it but good gosh are those buggers expensive!  Thus began a search for a cheaper alternative.

Photo Credit

Hello Nutribullet and thank you Kohl's cash and whomever gave me a Kohl's gift card for a wedding present for making this purchase possible. ;)

I've had a Magic Bullet in the past and used it so much that I blew the motor out.  I have a Ninja blender but I was wanting something I could take with me to work so I could make smoothies there and that Ninja base isn't going anywhere but my kitchen counter.  So my amazing, super analytical husband did some research and found the Nutribullet was probably going to be my best bet.  After a freezing cold trip to Kohl's I came home with this baby.

I made me a kale and apple smoothie for breakfast yesterday and all I can say is...YUM!!!  Awesome purchase and so worth the moolah in my opinion.  I'm about to make my son a carrot and apple smoothie so he can see it in action and get a healthy breakfast at the same time.

I really want to start the holiday season on the right foot and I am SO ready to get this nasty, disgusting flab off my body.  Since I've gotten married I've gained 30lbs.  I blame marital bliss and the hysterectomy but I am so tired of excuses.  I am ready to claim my body back and hopefully having this little gadget is going to get me one step closer.

I hope you and yours had a wonderful Thanksgiving and if any of you are crazy enough to go out today please be safe.  People get crazy this time of year, am I right???

Hahaha!!!  Truth...

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I'm Hooked Again

When I helped open our pharmacy back in 2011 it was just me and Layla*.  That first year was a doozy with just the two of us running the place. I look back and wonder how we did it but by Gods grace, and a lot of Starbucks, we did. 

I've always loved coffee. I remember my dad making coffee Saturday mornings and letting my sister and me have a sip. My dad has always made it with a ton of creamer and sugar with just a hint of coffee so naturally that's how I grew up sampling it. 

In college I remember loving coffee shops but boycotted Starbucks. In my click that was the cool thing to do. Throughout the years I went through coffee phases like when I had the boys (after breast-feeding of course) and when I worked at a mail order pharmacy where my day started at 4:00am and ended somewhere late afternoon. Coffee became my life blood and the only thing that kept me sane and functioning many a mornings. 

When Louie and me started dating and trying to lose weight together I decided my favorite sugar-laden beverage had to go. A few months after the pharmacy opened I quit cold turkey. Layla was shocked but I told her it was the health benefits and the money. I love me some Starbucks but good gosh is it expensive! 

Since the hysterectomy I've been craving coffee like no other. I checked some of my favorite health/fitness sites and many bodybuilders blend their morning joe with protein. Genius!!! 

Thus began my experimentation. I tried my Cellucor chocolate and it was too sweet. I'm out of vanilla protein so last week on my way home I stopped at The Vitamin Shoppe and the manager, and fellow coffee fanatic, told me about this. 

I am a huge latte fan (especially vanilla) so when I saw the bottle I was sold. It is delicious!! It's not enough protein for breakfast but it's better than sugar and chemically-laced creamer! 

Now coffee is back in my life and my Keurig and me could not be happier. 😊

Does anyone have any other uses for protein powder? I've read about pancakes so that's probably my next experimentation. Yum!! 

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*Name change to protect the privacy of my boss 😉 

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ISO Love My New Isobag!

L and me have been talking about taking our lunches to work.  I have always been a lunch taker but in the months before my surgery I was carrying several bags to get all of my food to work which got old really quick and L was carrying a small cooler that could barely fit anything.  Needless to say the whole lunch thing went by the wayside and we both became fast food junkies very quick.  

Another problem I have is having zero time to eat at work.  Business has picked up tremendously and time is very precious so the days of me "making" my lunch at work are long gone.  Since I'm going back in a little over a week I need a plan of action so the healthy eating habits I am establishing aren't lost.

Thus began the Google search for what the pros use to carry around the right kinds of eats and we found the Isobag from Isolator Fitness!  It looks small but it can fit so much food!  I can fit my shaker bottle in the side, my supplements in the top zipper part, and it comes with trays that fit in the middle that are BPA free and leak proof!  I haven't had a chance to test out how cold the food stays (that's my goal for next week) which will really make me know if this was a good purchase or not but for the price and all the room it's already worth it.  I do have a refrigerator at work so its not like I can't take out the trays and put them in there.

Let the healthy snacks and lunches commence! One less thing to stress out about going back to work. ;)

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LiveFit Bummer

Today started off with such promise.  I woke up feeling good, was on top of things throughout the morning  got to work early, and then the hunger began.  My stomach has been bloated and it seems to be getting worse so I made a decision today: NO MORE BIRTH CONTROL!  At least not until Dr. Andrew's gets my test results back and then I will have them switch me to something else that doesn't cause me to bloat and swell like I've been doing.

Mistake #1: Instead of my Advocare Meal Replacement shake I had instant oatmeal (Great Value at that!) and some peanut butter with a gala apple.  Definitely more calories than the shake but I thought it would satisfy me for longer.  Wrong!

Mistake #2: My co-worker didn't bring her lunch so she had her husband stop at a place and get her some Vietnamese soup.  There was quite a bit left over so she asked if I wanted some.  I said sure and man was it delish!  The problem was that after I ate it I had the worst craving for sugar and I got a Butterfinger.  I've went days without even craving one but I guess the noodles were a trigger?  I'm still trying to figure all this nutrition stuff out.

Mistake #3: My other co-worker came for a few hours to make calls so I decided to eat lunch early since she was there and could help out while I was gone.  This was at 12:30pm when I'm used to eating about 1:30pm so my eating was thrown off.  This led to me getting the shakes right at 5pm and devouring a pack of BelVida graham crackers, a large pear, and a Snickers on my way home.

My workout was horrible because first Sissy Poo called and then Daddy-O shortly after so I was focused more on the convo than the workout.  I never get to talk to my Sissy anymore so I couldn't tell her no!

I started the Jamie Eason LiveFit program on BB but I'm not sure if it fits me yet.  I did do most of the moves tonight and really don't feel like I got a workout at all. :(

Dinner was a loaded salad and after L said something that hurt my feelings about a cup of Cheez-Its and 1/2 cup of Blue Bell Cookies & Cream ice cream.  Can we say emotional eating?!!

So yea I'm bummed but that's what's so great about a day.  You can end the pout fest right now, close your eyes, and when you open them again you have grace...a new beginning and a new day to prove to yourself that this day is different and YES you can do it!

L told me he liked going to the gym with me tonight so we are going to meet up again tomorrow night after I drop off the boys with their dad.  He said he doesn't want to work out with me but he likes being able to look up at the gym and see me there.  So sweet. :)

OK, its time to close my eyes...

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