For those that do not know, I am a Mother's Day baby. My birthday was last Thursday and I was lucky enough to get to spend it with several of my close family members and completely pig out on chips and salsa and my birthday sopaipillas (if you were there THANK YOU!! It meant more to me than you'll ever know).
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That was pretty much the extent of the birthday festivities. I didn't even get to really see my husband. I spent most of the evening crying (after my early birthday dinner) and trying to respond to people on Facebook. Gotta love turning 37. I've never felt so old. Haha!!
One thing I am thankful for is that my birthday was one of my good days. The majority of April was a major struggle for me which is why you did not see me on here. I just needed a break from everything. I couldn't face the internet, especially social media. The physical pain co-mingling with the mental anguish I was daily struggling with was all too much for me. There were many things that contributed to my bout with depression and I am still not completely out of the 'darkness' but I am better than I was. I hate struggling with depression so much. I feel like I have lost so much of my life to depression and it makes me so angry but there are days I just do not know how to fight it. All I can do is pray and try to put my focus where it needs to be and ride the wave.
